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在我14岁的时候，我在哥妹俩论坛的日记名字是，“男人老狗，ac~~~~~tion !” 然后今年是狗年哈哈，就随便这个标题啦 有对象的人是跨年，没有对象的我昨天熬夜 惊喜的是2点睡觉的我今天8点就自然醒了，身体真的很习惯6小时的睡眠了 不吐不快篇 新年快乐 其实今天应该是一整天拼研究股票 可是早上起来还是一直想到某些我不想再想的事，就一些不知怎么我还是耿耿于怀的东西 主要是因为我昨天熬夜和 Sook Leng, Eelin 她们 countdown，然后自然就想起了2016时我是和 EeLynn，Jane 她们倒数 那我想起了那天我们是去 KLCC 倒数，为了方便的关系我就累累东载西载大家去和回家 我也记得我还有10天就考 P了，所以那之后我就闭关读书 然后几个让我不解的事情就发生了 首先是大家去了马六甲都没叫我，而且我之前还一直说想去马六甲 虽然是临时 jio 隔天就走，可是既然我的考试只在下个星期三，有没有一个人想过说不如等多一个星期我们才叫 Leon 一起去啊 所以上次 Sook Leng 考 C 时我不小心 bojio 她我也花了很大劲来哄回，因为我知道真的不是很好受的说 那也还算了，做过 internship 我也知道在 intern 的2个星期时间是感觉很漫长 可能大家也做得闷闷的就要出去玩也知道我考试就没有问我 那下一个星期我考完了，大家出去吃饭也没有叫我 无言的是我在和 EeLynn 在 messenger 上说话，然后 Jane 就发给我他们全部在吃饭照片 然后就说我要去就去 那是9点了，你们不在吃饭前问我，吃到一半问我要不要去干嘛，我 Kota Kemuning 去到那里几点了都，而且我昨天才考完试根本就是等出去的心情 然后就是没有，完全没有一个人在那之前问我要不要一起吃 2个星期前我还载大家去倒数哦 2个星期后就什么东西 ？ 那我也不是那种怀恨在心的人 可能就在某个想到的时刻，会有一点不解 我知道不是每个人都会想到自己，也不是她们的错因为这个世界这么多人，通常自己努力一点去参与的话大家也不会排挤的 那种全部人出去但是完全没有问到自己的感觉，我不懂是不是我自己放大啦 所以过后我也从很多角度来想这件事 可能性之一就可能我没有自己想象中和他们那么要好 也有可能就是故意不要叫...

Last Friday concluded the last trading day of 2017, the market has been okay to me for the short month that I traded in it I learnt lessons by losing money from stupid impulsive mistakes, but I made money from stupid impulsive moves also haha I admit I am not a very good trader for now, but one thing I will say I am very good at is cutting losses The law of probability dictates that if I work hard and keep planning trade according to my criteria, I will score a home run one day, til then I have to keep my losses small while moving up the learning curve There will be many times that the market move up and your stocks stay sideway, in this time you will doubt yourself However, it is never who run the fastest in the stock market, is about who run the longest By taking trading as a business, as long as my performance meets my goal, I don't care what other stocks are doing For me, a 3 to 4% per month of compounding will give me 40 to 60% or return per year That is already bett...

2017 has been great, guess why ? Because I worked my ass off in the last quarter of the year. In January 2017, I deferred my internship and took a few SOA papers, I failed both of them. So I decided to chill in March 2017, and to be honest I forgot what I did back then. When the final semester start, I was determined to spend as much time as I can in class with my friends, as I want to build good post graduate friendships, and also build lasting memories Fun is fun, but not many of the "good times" linger in my thought After I finished my final exam, I stay chilled from July to the end of August, as I planned. Because in September 2017, I started to take my stock trading pretty seriously, as CIMB stock challenge 2017 had been just around the corner. Also I was watching 1 excel tutorial video per day as an effort to improve my excel fluency. In October 2017, we took part in CIMB stock challenge 2017, we managed to snatched the 4th place until we took bigger risk and...

我有一个非常不是很喜欢的朋友叫做 Cuthbert，我想不到我还有非常不是很喜欢谁了 他是那种看戏时超容易被一些简单的桥段给逼哭 那我也有另一个朋友叫符怡宁，每次去看戏也是乱哭一把，有一次我奇怪为什么她没有带 tissue 进去 那我也不是完全在吐槽他们哭点低，我是一个不容易被逼哭的人，但不代表我不想被逼哭 正是因为我知道自己不容易被感动，我每次看电影都抱着希望自己能被感动的心情去看 曾经把我逼哭的电影，台词，甚至歌我还是可以说出7 或8个的，所以我不是冷血啦 :D 可我今天想随便说说的是其中一个让我些许感动的小说，“后青春期的诗” 九把刀这一次不带大家到天马行空的超能力世界，而是回到地球表面，镜头跟着一群老朋友聚会后，想起十二年前埋的时光胶囊后，展开一场尽力完成十二年前自己对自己的承诺的故事 注意我刚刚说“随便说说的是其中一个让我些许感动的小说”，因为我不是想介绍或说什么评语 12月23号我和一班朋友开了个小小的圣诞节聚会，我在群组里建议我们也玩一个时光胶囊，虽然完全被无视，可是其实我私底下有和 Sook Leng 随便说说 过后并没有做这个时光胶囊，可是我想了想，我的愿望好像非常的不青春啊 在“后青春期的诗”里，18岁的主角们一人写了3个梦想，放进保温瓶，挖了一个大洞把保温瓶埋了起来，然后一个变态打手枪仪式来发誓10年后大家一起把它挖出来，看看大家有没有实现自己对自己的承诺 不说18岁，就21岁的我，可能还会说我某天一定要打至少一场拳击或泰拳比赛 我一定要追到女神级的女朋友之类的 23岁的我，牺牲了最喜欢的几项运动，因为晚上要看K线图 23岁的我，不再坚持每餐得吃得健康，因为和朋友开心也很重要 23岁的我，不再不在乎全部人去补习我一个人回家，因为我也渴望友情 重点是，重点是，重点是，我忽然发觉，我好像已经就快要脱离最适合玩时光胶囊的年纪了 如果我18岁，或21岁写，或许我能在10年后笑笑自己当初的年少青涩 23岁的我，虽然还没有完全被社会驯服，可是也为了现实妥协了不少 小说里，森弘要打篮球打进公牛或湖人，现实是他乖乖打了工，连员工篮球队也没参加 小说里，西瓜要开一辆跑车，现实是驾着国产车，卖着一驾一驾买不起的进口车 那回到我，我还有一点点对未来的憧憬，尤其说时光胶囊我也有自己的·1年，3年和5年计划 ...

A lot of time we are hurt and we conceal it, I see it everywhere We are used to being silence about your bullshit that hurt us Throwing tantrum all over the place when we have so much else in mind Most of the time I try to be fun and positive Whenever a woman is the prickly kind of girl, I will always laugh and apologise They don't know under the smiley face we too are tired, carrying so much hurt unrevealed while you crying over a scratch on your fingertip, we smile and apologize I have my fair share of screw up moments I know But just you know that, we are the kind of animal that leave a thousand blades stabbed by your actions on our back, while smilingly try to make you happy ps: I wrote this very long time ago and I just published it, because there were so many times I had to "tam" someone, fake a lot of smile, apologize, even when I am not feeling well, just because I don't want to make a big fuss When I make a big fuss, you can be sure a lot of thin...

饥饿时，什么都是美味的。 当一个人的需要得到满足也是一种快乐，但这种需求不能代表爱的所有需求。 在饥饿的时候，我们会本能地降低对食物的要求，只有不饿的时候，才知道自己究竟喜欢什么样的口味，理解需要和爱是两回事。 爱里面有[需要]的成分，但绝不仅仅是需要，尚有彼此的欣赏，彼此的相似性，无条件的利他行为等。 很多人分不清需要和爱，分不清依恋和爱，分不清感激和爱，分不清好感和爱。 需要，依恋，感激，好感等感觉都会给你爱的错觉。 不要仅仅为了感激，为了依赖，为了愧疚而接受一个人。 当你不能给对方真正的爱时，不仅对自己不负责任，对对方也是一种罪过。

Okay, so this is my kind of chart pattern <3 Let's play a game, see how these 4 companies perform next Apr Of course I am not invested, being a broke students, it is just a game haha

几年之前去 Jonathan Quek 的演讲，虽然到最后的最后发觉是叫你去做直销，可是也算是学到了一些东西 模模糊糊记得的算是一个叫 3B 的东西啦，因为很好记 其实就是他说他每天早上会尝试克服 3个B, 借此来 empower 他的一天 科学根据来说就是一个人若早上做了最难的事， 会给心情好的影响，借此展开有效率的一天 3B stands for Bed, Body, Book 虽然不是有意去追随这个 ritual，但是我在 internship 期间的 morning routine 就顺便克服了3B 今天是 11月30日，这个 morning routine 也持续了 一个月 （周末除外） 第一个 B 是 Bed，既是要克服赖床的习惯 现在我周一到周五都5点起来（周二除外，那是休息日），10到11点间睡觉 起初是很想死啦，现在我的身体已经习惯 4点30 自然醒 而且我发觉如果我起来后立刻离开冷气房，去客厅用电话10至20分钟我的身体就会完全进入清醒状态 第二个 B 是 Body, 也就是早上运动 早上身体关节比较僵硬，热身是要久一点才不会受伤 早上起来后，运动那一部分其实没什么难度因为我习惯体能训练了 要增肌的时候会做举重或者去公园做引体向上和俯卧撑 要减肥的时候就会去跑步，然后回家做一些仰卧起坐 第三个 B 是 Book， 也就是早上读书 通常5点起来，玩个电话到5点20分让身体苏醒 运动个一个小时到 6点30分左右 出门后搭上7点40分的 KTM，KTM上那40~50分钟就是我读书的时候了（回家那段是 50/50， 有时听歌，有时读书） 这个月已经 clear 了3本书 (用电话读 pdf file) The truth of stock tape, How to make money in stocks, Market Wizard : Interviews with top traders 三本都是经典，好书好书 好啦这就是我一个月每个早上不经意的克服了 3B 我不是异常幸运的基因中奖者，可是我很幸运地有改变自己的机会 关于运气这种事我打算在另一个贴文说

I remembered one of the first few Tekken competitions I watched was JDCR V.S Incognito It was Tekken Tag 2, JDCR from South Korea was using Heihachi and Armor King, while Incognito from the USA was using Bob and Bryan. And holy shit was I blown away by the technicality and perfect execution of the characters' moves Since then I pay more attention to Tekken's technical side, instead of just playing it blindly like how I used to play fighting games I started learning all the "jargon" for Tekken, like frame, high crush, low crush, homing, etc. It is the only E game I watch, and play offline with my brother As it is the only E game I watch so far I guess I can write a post to honour our memory haha It is such a difficult game, that requires so many so many time in practice mode, and then carry forward what you practice into real fight, which guarantee 80% of what you do in practice mode cannot be done when you are fighting for real That is why I only play offl...

*那些年我们听的歌，14岁的日子好遥远 那时的我不敢和女生搭话，每天放学打篮球还有去 mamak 买冰水 每天傍晚去公园玩卡，不然就是在家门前打羽球 还好我有出去玩的青春 (还有大家一起在公园看A片)* ---------------------------------------------------我是分割线----------------------------------------------------- 心很空 天很大 云很重 我恨孤单 却赶不走 捧着她的名字 她的喜怒哀乐 往前走 多久了 一个人心中只有一个宝贝 久了之后 她变成了眼泪 泪一滴在左手 凝固成为寂寞 往回看 有什么 那女孩对我说 说我保护她的梦 说这个世界 对她这样的不多 她渐渐忘了我 但是她并不晓得 遍体鳞伤的我 一天也没再爱过 那女孩对我说 说我是一个小偷 偷她的回忆 塞进我的脑海中 我不需要自由 只想揹着她的梦 一步步向前走 她给的永远 不重

There is one study aid I adopt a lot of time That is white noise, love it so much I generally DON'T use it when I study at home This is because I am afraid constantly blasting noise into my ear may damage my hearing in long term Also, it is not needed if I am already in a serene study place I used it when I have to drown out the noise Sunway library has some of the most annoying users, who talk or listen music in their earphone but the volume is so loud I can hear it That is when the white noise comes into picture, I find it very effective at times I mean it always drown out the other noises, but it does not necessary help me to concentrate Also, at time like NOW, when my stupid dog is barking, or when my dad is mumbling complaint again. White noise will save the day.. Lastly, I particularly use the white noise below in youtube, I screenshot it, you like it you can try it. I am putting my earphone on for now. :D

客观上来说，这个世界上，人与人之间的差距原本就很大。 人的所有行为背后的动机都是爱自己，满足自己，而且自己习以为常的这套生活方式，和几十年来灌输在头脑中的思想，很难轻易为对方改变。 因此，我们看到镜中的自己是最顺眼的。 ”找互补的对象好，还是相似的对象好？“ 当然，两人也不可能绝对的相似或互补。 相似是指在一些本质上的东西，例如价值观，处事方式，原则等。 而互补则在一些小细节方面，例如兴趣，爱好，性格方面。 [相似]应该是指彼此接纳，认同和支持。而[互补]应该是能让彼此欣赏，让自己更加完美并得到很好的提升。

送上 Jalil 写给 Mariam 的信 :D  (A thousand splendid suns) 我读的时候都差点哭了 May 13, 1987 My dear Mariam: I pray that this letter finds you in good health. As you know, I came to Kabul a month ago to speak with you. But you would not see me. I was disappointed but could not blame you. In your place, I might have done the same. I lost the privilege of your good graces a long time ago and for that I only have myself to blame. Bui if you are reading this letter, then you have read the letter that I left at your door. You have read it and you have come to see Mullah Faizullah, as I had asked that you do. I am grateful that you did, Mariam jo. I am grateful for this chance to say a few words to you. Where do I begin? Your father has known so much sorrow since we last spoke, Mariam jo. Your stepmother Afsoon was killed on the first day of the 1979 uprising. A stray bullet killed your sister Niloufar that same day. I can still see her, my little Niloufar, doing head stands to impress gues...